Red Elk Speaks

This long run of small strokes and miner heart attacks have dragged me down,  yet is
harder on my wife / daughter and grandson...its easy to just give up. Yet is it 
our CREATOR'S WILL? I'm still around so will remain fighting.

These 3 here are not my whole family...YOU ARE AS WELL. At least that's the way I feel
about it. can't help it...Big Brother actually Lives within me.  HIS LOVE carry's on. 
Aho?

When I asked why I was in this, He SAID, "YOU ARE A TEACHER...YOU CANNOT TEACH AGING
WITHOUT KNOWING IT." Guess I'm learning...big time. I haven't been outside...even to the
porch in (now) 8 weeks. My three here are physically in pain lifting me around. All. Rough on
them and frustrating. In this they get a bit 'rough' at times. I understand. 

Forgiven.  Aho?  

Still, my wife works all day and comes home to more of the same. 
Often up 3 to 7 times a night to help me (toilet calls) while the other two sleep. 

Sigh.

Slowly over 3 weeks now odd diarrhea is slowly stopping. No more adult diapers as
of last nite. Very degrading. Ugh  11 pain pills 2 to 3 times a day, plus regular
medications is so overloading it is these that are my meals.  FULL. 

The shakes make typing very hard...forget handwriting. Book sales? Only one in 4 months. One and I bought 
that one as a gift. Donations occasionally, helps....though very rare in this economy. No problem...I
understand.

Now the HOPE news; I've a Native American family...friends of long standing...people I've help
through some rough times.

I WILL MOVE TO THIER LAND  FOR SPRING /  SUMMER AND EARLY FALL.  They will see after
me. All I need is wood to build a deck for my 2 'living tents' I need. As
donations come I will buy each board till it's built. Each cost 11.00. They will
build it 4 me. One likes to camp and will be with me to give me a hand.  Aho?

If this works out then I'm in the woods I love...OUTSIDE LIVING...while giving my 3
there a break THEY need.

Now it's a 'wait and see' situation. Please, PRAY 4 HIS WILL...So I can go on.  Thank
you.  

God Bless   


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