Red Elk Speaks

This long run of small strokes and miner heart attacks have dragged me down,  yet is
harder on my wife / daughter and grandson...its easy to just give up. Yet is it 
our CREATOR'S WILL? I'm still around so will remain fighting.

These 3 here are not my whole family...YOU ARE AS WELL. At least that's the way I feel
about it. can't help it...Big Brother actually Lives within me.  HIS LOVE carry's on. 
Aho?

When I asked why I was in this, He SAID, "YOU ARE A TEACHER...YOU CANNOT TEACH AGING
WITHOUT KNOWING IT." Guess I'm learning...big time. I haven't been outside...even to the
porch in (now) 8 weeks. My three here are physically in pain lifting me around. All. Rough on
them and frustrating. In this they get a bit 'rough' at times. I understand. 

Forgiven.  Aho?  

Still, my wife works all day and comes home to more of the same. 
Often up 3 to 7 times a night to help me (toilet calls) while the other two sleep. 

Sigh.

Slowly over 3 weeks now odd diarrhea is slowly stopping. No more adult diapers as
of last nite. Very degrading. Ugh  11 pain pills 2 to 3 times a day, plus regular
medications is so overloading it is these that are my meals.  FULL. 

The shakes make typing very hard...forget handwriting. Book sales? Only one in 4 months. One and I bought 
that one as a gift. Donations occasionally, helps....though very rare in this economy. No problem...I
understand.

Now the HOPE news; I've a Native American family...friends of long standing...people I've help
through some rough times.

I WILL MOVE TO THIER LAND  FOR SPRING /  SUMMER AND EARLY FALL.  They will see after
me. All I need is wood to build a deck for my 2 'living tents' I need. As
donations come I will buy each board till it's built. Each cost 11.00. They will
build it 4 me. One likes to camp and will be with me to give me a hand.  Aho?

If this works out then I'm in the woods I love...OUTSIDE LIVING...while giving my 3
there a break THEY need.

Now it's a 'wait and see' situation. Please, PRAY 4 HIS WILL...So I can go on.  Thank
you.  

God Bless   


re

Friends,  

Though I'm a fighter, I'm also logical....
not getting better though not much worse
physically.  aho?   

Thus, in the last I write this: to date there are some who
understand (to a point) "PURITY". HERE ARE THEIR NAMES:  
ADAM BARBARA
SACRAMENTO JULIUS
DAVID SPROAT
HEATHER 

To my now knowledge, each holds a firm base of my sharings. In short,  
live or not, to any wanting help in 
learning more and improving...
write Heather and she will do her best to help you contact these others. 
aho?

Frankly, I've no idea how long I can go on. 
Though I've been told I  will 'go' after 4
"leavings"...only time will test this telling...so, just in case.....  

GB   re